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I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I thought you really loved me
I don’t know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I’ve had enough

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don’t know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I’ll be okay

And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

落地。

我猜，此刻已經相隔萬里。誰知道那裏是怎樣的光景和天氣，是怎樣的春尾夏初，病毒的侵襲擾亂了悠然的慣例，人們是不是也在焦躁的奔走相告。我猜想，急促的雙腳如何點地，飛行對你來説當然不只是交通工具。是不是坐在窗口研究機翼穿過雲層的原理，是不是想起趴在地上用兩個益力多空瓶子為我做的實驗。那裏的綿羊風聲鶴唳，那裏的藍天晴朗靜溢。那裏的你，才是純粹乾淨的你。

我，染了頭髮，買了衣服，睡了又醒、醒了又睡，跑遍香港陌生的地點，開著看起來燦爛明媚的討論會。時不時想起關於我們那個星球的傳説：你可以在這裡拍自己喜愛的電影，要求每一個公民觀看並熱愛。我們選擇了Jupiter，我說不出我的原因，你也沒有告訴我你的原因。

我想這個世界的緯度裏，從來就具有時差和門第，就像謊言和流感一樣稀鬆容易。

終于，我們的重力隨氣旋墜落不一樣的情緒。

而這情緒，也生出不一樣的自己。

潮濕的地面。潮濕的雙腳。潮濕的内心和故事。

這潮濕的故事，被我講說多次，講起來也不再吝嗇，好像說著別人的陳年舊事。被塞滿的行程裏，沒有留任何的餘地何以用來幻想或者傷心。從現在開始，Knutsford Terrace只是一個地名而已了。答應你的事情做不到了，我仍然抽煙，並且自省。我時常想也許這就是個錯誤的時間，所以發生在這個區間内的一切都不可能是對的，結果都不可能是好的。

但至少，它讓我從一個疼痛裏爬出來，雖然又跌入了另一個傷疤。

但至少，這個傷疤不難麽疼。

因爲，心還不那麽重。